I’m a 20 year old journalist and guitarist.
I couldn’t live without my best friends, Kacy and Caitlin
I eat all of the marshmallows out of lucky charms and pick all of the chocolate chips out of ice cream.
Puppies, the color yellow, tattoos, and polar bears make me smile.
I regret nothing.
“You only get one life, but if you live it right you only need one.”
I gave you everything. Twice now. You left me a week before i had to move, you ran away because you were scared, and then a week later told me that you wanted me again. It was the happiest moment of my life because i know somewhere that we are meant to be together. We are exactly a like but you don’t see it. You ignored my desperate tries to get you to see this and brushed me off like i was an annoying creature that you couldn’t get away from. You ignored me for days, and i worried myself sick about you. Trying to figure out why I am the common thread. Why I do this to myself. why I hurt myself. What I did wrong to you. What I did. If i could just get you to see that we are perfect for each other, than there would be nothing left. You wouldn’t be scared anymore, and i wouldnt be crying again over you. Because you are my light. my world. my everything. my first thought when i wake up and my last thought when i go to sleep and every thought in between. You are the only person i want because i love you and i adore all of your silly habits because i adore you. you are everything to me. and again, i am nothing to you. That’s why i’ll sit here, a hundred miles away, and just cry because for the second time in my life, a thing i promised i would never do again, i gave someone else a second chance and you used it to once again destroy my heart and my entire being. You use my kindness and forgiving nature against me, and maybe one day i will have it in me to hate you for doing all this, but right now i choose to just sit here. And accept my fate because its truly all my fault, whose else could it be?