Rae of Sunshine

And now my heart shatters into a million pieces again for the same guy.

I gave you everything. Twice now. You left me a week before i had to move, you ran away because you were scared, and then a week later told me that you wanted me again. It was the happiest  moment of my life because i know somewhere that we are meant to be together. We are exactly a like but you don’t see it. You ignored my desperate tries to get you to see this and brushed me off like i was an annoying creature that you couldn’t get away from. You ignored me for days, and i worried myself sick about you. Trying to figure out why I am the common thread. Why I do this to myself. why I hurt myself. What I did wrong to you. What I did. If i could just get you to see that we are perfect for each other, than there would be nothing left. You wouldn’t be scared anymore, and i wouldnt be crying again over you. Because you are my light. my world. my everything. my first thought when i wake up and my last thought when i go to sleep and every thought in between. You are the only person i want because i love you and i adore all of your silly habits because i adore you. you are everything to me. and again, i am nothing to you. That’s why i’ll sit here, a hundred miles away, and just cry because for the second time in my life, a thing i promised i would never do again, i gave someone else a second chance and you used it to once again destroy my heart and my entire being. You use my kindness and forgiving nature against me, and maybe one day i will have it in me to hate you for doing all this, but right now i choose to just sit here. And accept my fate because its truly all my fault, whose else could it be?